Wednesday, December 31, 2008

What a day..

Yesterday, I went go-karting with Jia Jie and his friends at the Plentong Go-Kart Circuit. We took the SBS public transport into Malaysia and then took a cab to the circuit. A 10-minute session on the circuit cost S$15! It was such a good price compared to S$45 per session in Singapore. =]

After go-karting, we had Bah Kut Teh for lunch. Jia Jie and I then departed for track training in NUS. I felt really good during the track intervals compared to how I felt weeks ago prior to the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon. I have indeed ran the wall down. =]

I look forward to greater sporting success in the new year. 2009, here I come!

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Christmas and the weekend..

Christmas has finally arrived this year, and it marks yet again another year passed..On boxing day, my cousin Huiqi got married. It was the third wedding in my family this year! Counting down chronologically, the next in line should be me! Boy, doesn't time pass so quickly..

The wedding yet again allowed the extended family to interact and catch up with one another. It was good to see Zhen Yi back from the UK during his school break. We had a good time that night, fooling around like we always do =]

The next day, on Saturday, I had my NUS aquathlon time-trial at Sentosa. To be perfectly honest, I was not ready AT ALL for this time-trial. I just returned from Cambodia and since pre-CA2, I have not been training that regularly for weeks, even months! Furthermore, I was down with flu and sore-throat after my trip. Adding salt to the wound, that Saturday morning, I had diarrhoea. I did not want to go through the time-trial, but upon seeing everyone in the team gearing up for it, I changed my mind. I decided to try and complete it. Just complete it.

This was yet another instance where my body decided to act in contrary with my mind. I managed to complete my time-trial in 1hr 15mins 24secs. It was not exactly a very good timing, and there is still a lot to improve from here. =] I am just glad that I managed to complete it.

Later that day, I attended my NUS cell group's year end party where we invited friends over to have a time of fun, fellowship and food. It was a huge success! There were a total of 56 friends brought and I believed that they all had their share of fun, felllowship and food. =] I hope that we ride on this success and continue to reach out.

Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest.” - Matthew 9:37-38

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

PSLE English Paper 2, Section 4: Editing for Spelling and Grammar – 10 marks

I saw this pasted on the lift at my block, try to spot the error.. =]


Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Project Lokun

I'm back from my Medical mission trip to Cambodia! There were so many things waiting to be done the moment I touched down. Sometimes I wonder whether I could really cut myself loose from the things of this world and just live the life. This reflection helped me wrap up the experiences I had from this trip.

I realised that I was gettting closer to my desired outlook on life the moment my plane cruised along the runway in Changi International Airport. For once in my life, I did not feel the onslaught of emotions that I usually get. I felt neutral. I was not THAT happy to be back home, but neither was I unhappy. Neutral. That was the most apt description.

Anna was a spanish architect whom I had great pleasure of making friends with on this trip. She, I believe, was someone placed in my life to guide me in my journey through life. Recounting a book I read long ago by Mitch Albom entitled "The Five People You Meet in Heaven", it beautifully elucidates that all lives are connected to each other, directly or indirectly, and whether we realize it or not. I could not agree more on this concept! Anyways, Anna had been in Cambodia for 5 months already, aiding the people there by building houses. Her next stop will be Australia. Watching her face glow whenever she describes her experiences in different parts of the world, something within me resonated with her, begging to be able to identify similar encounters.

I feel that most people (myself included) are too afraid to step out of their comfort zone to step into something that is uncertain. We tend to make sure that everything is planned before taking that first step. Where is the faith?

On the 5th day of my project, we conducted health education and clinics at Kampong Luon floating village. Our team split into 2 groups, one conducting health education at the floating church's school and the other group running the clinic at the community's health centre. After 4 days of doing health education, screening and clinics in schools around CROAP, this was a new experience. Helping at the floating village set me thinking about a lot of things. It made me question things that I thought I always had the answers for. This was good, it provides me with an opportunity to be grounded in foundation once again. Also, I feel that this allows me to grow; when you stop asking questions, that is when you stop growing.

I also had the priviledge to experience 'house moving' in the floating village. The floating church and school I was on was towed out into deeper waters when the tide dropped too low. According to the locals, this 'house moving' is done whenever the waters get too shallow. Other than allowing houses to float on them, the water in the Tonle Sap lake is also used for bathing, cooking, washing, waste disposal, playing and for catching the fishes that live in them. It came as no surprise to me that the bowls I used during lunch was washed by the same water which I had pee-ed into minutes ago.

Lastly, I did not allow myself to bring any luxury items (facial wipes, mp3 player, etc) on this trip. All I had was my handphone which was used in the case of emergency when we need to contact one another and a tube of SAF insect repellent. I did not feel at all lacking without those things. In fact, I felt free, so carefree. It was an amazing feeling.

Through this trip, I made 2 more Cambodian friends, Chhong Mao and Sinath. They were very friendly and hospitable. They are people that I will hold dear to and keep in contact with. I might return to Cambodia prior to my Ironman in Switzerland next year for the same project to work alongside them again.

I believe that this project benefitted me more than it did for the Cambodians. There was only so much we can do to help them as students compared to help rendered by a doctor. However, I hope and pray that this experience will catapult me further into the unknown where real faith is needed. God use me.

Monday, December 15, 2008

The end of one of my many semesters..

Today marks the end of my 1st semester in NUS Medical school.. Looking back at the past few months, it seemed that time was fast-forwarded, everything went by so quickly and I was, as usual, busy with so many things to do.. After looking back at this semester, I would say that it was nothing like I expected it to be!

I thought I had everything all planned out. I will walk closely with God, be super-alert in lectures so that I waste little time during revisions; I would then use that extra time to train for my various events, give tuition, lead the kids well in church, enjoy sunday football, etc.. In essence, I have planned to have a very well-balanced life in University, seeing myself grow in all areas of my life and developing into a better person.

Well..Things turned out ok in some areas and not so ok in others. To cut the long story short, my plans failed. I could scarcely summon the discipline that saw me through VJC when I trained 6 times a week for soccer. I did not make full use of the time given to me to do things of greater value. I simply wasted time, a gift always under-estimated.

Today, during my 3hr long CA2, I was taken aback by the paper. It did not seem as friendly as CA1, it was out to kill. I felt drained (something I never felt before during exams), reading the questions 6 times to focus my mind on it. I simply did not feel like doing the damn paper. I even comprehended walking out of the examination hall, but I did not. I took the time while doing the paper to reflect on where I've gone wrong this semester. What have I done and not done leading to me feeling this way now? Perhaps it was complacency, thinking that I did well in CA1, therefore CA2 will also be another walk in the park. Indeed, I have slacken off towards the 2nd half of this semester.. I thought of all the time wasted watching movies on my laptop during revision and mugging in the build up to my paper (a grand total of 19.5 movies - 0.5 as I haven't finished watching it).

There were so many things I've identified during this short 3hrs that could be improved in the next semester. I want to improve, I want to do justice to my plan, I must succeed! Well, amidst all the negative points, there are also positive ones. One that comes right off the top of my head is training with the NUS Aquathlon team.

I used to think that people in NUS Aquathlon was proud, unfriendly and all the bad stuff (I don't know why I felt this way, but yea..). After my 1st training with them, I realised that this was a group where like-minded people come together to do things that they enjoy. They were friendly, ever so ready to help with their 2 cents worth. The team bonding is really tight and it feels like family.

Therefore, the 1st thing I thought off after my very discouraging paper was to go for training later in the day at 7pm. I wanted to whack the sets and vent my frustrations in the pool, and most importantly, to meet my family in NUS. Training today was tough, with us completing 3.9km worth of sets. The breathing drill made me feel that I was earning my right to breathe; with each breath, I covered more ground with my strokes.

I felt strong in the water today. I remembered what Nicolas always tell me, "Feel like you're a knife slicing through butter." I felt like that knife today. It is a pity that I will miss training for a week as I will be leaving for Cambodia 7hrs from now for a medical mission. Will be doing my share of running and stretch cords with Shaun though. =]

I left training feeling better about life in general. Encouragement from Aldrich was really touching and it reinforces my theory that Aquathlon is more than a CCA, it is my way of life in NUS. I look forward to the new year and the new semester for it brings hope for improvements. I thank God that He revealed so much in my life that needs to be worked on. I will do my best, with God doing the rest.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. - Hebrews 11:1

Saturday, December 13, 2008

This is so damn sick!

"...I will prescribe regimens for the good of my patients according to my ability and my judgment and never do harm to anyone..." - line from the Hippocratic Oath

Would a doctor:

1. Ask if you wanted to re-attach your middle finger or your ring finger after telling you how much it will cost to re-attach each finger?
2. Ask if you have money or insurance premiums before treating you of your disesase or relieving you of your pain?
3. Refuse to treat you or your loved ones if you of they are not covered with insurance?
4. Refuse to treat you or your loved ones if you or they have no money?
5. Dump you at some NGO (non-government organisation) hospital if you had no money to pay for your treatment?
6. Charge you US$120 for a medicine that costs US$0.05 elsewhere?

Well, apparently the answer to all the questions posted above is an astonishing "YES" in the United States of America. The man in 1. could only afford to have his ring finger attached, and it was because he wanted to still have his wedding band on. 2 ladies in 2. have to watch their loved ones (1 husband and 1 child) die because doctors refuse to treat them as they have no insurance premiums. Many people in 5. were thrown into a cab and driven to NGO hospitals, some still having their IV catheter in their hands or were in semi-healed state.

This really blew my mind after watching Michael Moore's Sicko. I seriously cannot comprehend why these doctors do what they do. Even a normal civilian would stop to help someone in need, what more a doctor? Someone who is called to serve, someone with a higher calling, someone whom others see as a hope. I am utterly thankful and blessed to call Singapore my home...

“No Singaporean will be denied needed healthcare because of lack of funds” - PM Goh

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Brilliant!

This was a clip I saw on HBO when I was watching TV a few weeks back! Super hilarious and brilliantly done! Enjoy!! =]

Flight of the Conchords - Inner City Pressure

Someone once asked me...

"hey...do you very much believe in fate? :)"

If this looks familiar to you, you're pretty sharp.. =] Someone once asked me this question on my tagboard. Someone who goes by the name passerby. Actually I had an answer immediately, but I dare not post it because it seemed so idealistic.. If I may, I will like to change the question to what I perceived it to be...

"hey...do you very much believe in destiny? :)"

This was how I saw it. I believe that we as God's children have the liberty to exercise our free will as long as it is within moral grounds. A friend once told me, "love God and do anything". It was so simple yet profound. Can we really do anything? Let me put it this way, if you really love God, you will do things that pleases Him.

As the days go by, the answer that I wanted to give became more and more clear..now I'm prepared to answer that question truthfully..

Destiny is the bridge you build to the one you love. - My Sassy Girl

You have to do something even if things were meant for you. It does not mean that you can just sit back and hope that it will turn out as you dreamed or wished. However, before you start building that bridge, are you sure about the one you love?

Monday, December 08, 2008

Mike's wedding

I attended another wedding last night. This time it was my superior and close friend, during my term as instrutor in the School of Armour, Captain Mike. He is someone who really inspires me to better myself and I really learnt a lot from him throughout my time in National Service.

I can still remember vividly the many times we just sit around after training doing nothing but talk about things in life. He always seem to know what I was feeling or thinking about..and was most of the time right. Whenever I need help with advices on certain issues pertaining to issues in life, I will seek his perspective on things. He never fails to simplify the problem for me. Perhaps I think too much sometimes...

Anyways, the day before I was just looking through some photos taken during my instructorship tour back in the School of Armour and this one particularly grabbed my attention.

Jeremy, Jeck, Wee Ten, Me and Meng Wee

These were the instructors that I worked closely with. We were the 2LTs of the Tank Officer Cadet Course. I was looking at the picture and a thousand memories just swarmed back. I really miss those times. National Service was indeed a life-shaping journey..

At the wedding, I was delighted to see them and all my superiors too. It was a time to catch up and reminisce the good times. I also realised that everyone who was at Officer Training Wing was posted out to other units, leaving behind only Captain Mike and Warrant Yeo. Warrant Yeo was another person who taught me many things. He was like a father to me. Last night, OTW was reunited.

I still maintain my stand that people in OTW during my 2nd batch as instructor was the coolest bunch! =] We had so much fun working and playing and training. Life was never boring..Hahas..

However, life moves on..We all move on in life on different paths, glad that in a point in time our paths cross and we get shaped by one another, taking away something from each other that will remain in us forever.

"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies." - Aristotle

Sunday, December 07, 2008

The last race of the year..

This morning's Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon was my final event for the year. When I woke up at 4.10am, I was still thinking whether or not to run this race as I haven't really been training for it due to a minor burnout I sustained. SMSes on my handphone from friends wishing me the best tilted my decision to the other side. I decided to just run to complete.

The day couldn't have started better with me stepping into a muddy hole on the way to deposit my baggage. The whole place was a mud-fest! As I was supposed to meet Jonathan to follow his pace (he wanted to do a 4hr 30min run), I quickly deposited my bag and went to search for him. The place was a mess and to cut the long story short, I failed to find him. Hence, I went to the start point to wait for him, hoping that I will see him coming down the stairs doing his trademark 'hand on bottom edge of shirt' stunt. That too did not happen. However, he manage to spot me from a multitude of people and we began the run together.

I held up well with Jonathan until the 13-14km mark when I felt that he was going too fast; he was not going at the pace for our targetted time. I decided to be dropped by him. So the majority of the race was done alone. 2 thoughts fought for dominance in my mind then - to go faster to try and hit the timing or to just maintain a slow and steady pace to complete the race. I succumbed to the 1st thought which was a bad move as I haven't been training for this race. At the latter part of the race, the consequence of my wrong decision was made evident. It was really pretty painful in the last 10km. I even walked abit (something I always feel strongly against).

As I had loads of time alone during the run, I pondered about what my boss in army told me, "Sports is war in peace time." What a succinct description. I think he is right. Just take a look at the Olympics, and you will see countries like the United States and China battle it out for top spot. The latter even famous for training schools who take children in when they are very young, training them for just a particular event. 'Athlete harvesting' if you ask me.

So during the race, I came to realise that I did not perform well in any of my races this year! I think I lack the knowledge and discipline on how I should prepare for a particular event. I always finish a race thinking that I could do better. Thinking about if only I trained earlier, harder, was more focused. The thousand and one 'if onlys'...and I totally dislike that feeling! Next year, there will be more races, and I seriously hope to do well in the majority of them.


I also realised that in my life so far, I have always been a very impatient person. I could think of many instances where my impatience cost me to fail in a situation, like the bad decision I made during the race! Another example was a very big mistake that was also made due to my impatience, not once but twice. I think that was and still is the biggest mistake of my life. I hope that as my life unfolds, it will no longer be...I thank God that He revealed this to me today about myself. This is really something that has to be addressed and changed.

I continued walking/running until the this last 1km, where I met my soccer senior and medicine senior, JR and Jega. We completed the race together. I did the marathon in a time of 4hr 38min, Jonathan did it under 4hrs. =]

Finally, my learning point from this marathon: I have to make use of this marathon to catapult me into next year's training for my races. I have to learn to be disciplined and to be patient. I want to give all that I have and do well. That is the best feeling anyone can ever have.

"Now you have to go through hell, worst than any nightmare that you ever dream; but in the end, you know you'ld be the last one standing." - Coach Duke to Rocky Balboa before the latter fought Ivan Drago

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Run like an animal


After once tried searching high and low for this poster to no avail, Aldrich, my Aquathlon captain, sent us this scan that he made a few days ago. =] Brilliant! I thought the words on it were very inspirational...

RUN EASY IS AN OXYMORON.
What is it about running that scares people so much? Why do people feel they have to put friendly modifiers next to running so that everyone can feel good about it? Well here's the ugly truth: Everyone shouldn't feel good about running. It's hard. It hurts. Running requires sacrifices and heart and guts. Any attempt to water it down with feel good adjectives is a slap in the face to those of us who still hold running sacred. In fact, if you are running easy, odds are you're not running at all. You're jogging. So do us a favour, don't run easy. Run hard. Run like an animal. - Pearl Izumi

I have a marathon tomorrow..can I run like an animal?

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Beauty in even the most mundane things..

In the midst of the numerous renal corpuscles, collecting tubules and ducts and macula densa cells on my kidney slide, I found this beautifully shaped structure...


Believe me, it was really hard to take this photo with my camera phone =] I only finally managed to snap this on my 3rd attempt after what seemed like an eternity of adjusting. This is probably a cross-section of a blood vessel in the kidney.

Upon seeing this heart, I was immediately reminded of God's love for us. A love so great and sacrificial that He sent His Son Jesus to die for us on the Cross. At that moment, I was deeply humbled...

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." - John 3:16