You are always there

Looking back the past 6 months which flew by so quickly, I cannot help but see God's hands throughout my entire stay in Johannesburg, South Africa. I could still remember the palpitations I had on my flight in from Singapore, questioning my decision to do a trauma fellowship here. Had I known what I do know now, I would not have worried one bit! However, hindsight is always 6/6, I believe that I needed to embark on this journey myself to learn the many lessons God has intended for me.

I am particularly thankful for my partner in crime, Susumu Matsushime, a trauma surgeon and intensivist from Japan. We started our fellowships on the exact same day, and it really helps having someone around to figure things out with. On top of working together, we frequently meet up for meals to unwind; we even set up a foodie group to enjoy good food with other fellow international doctors! I will always cherish the many trips we took together to explore the other parts of South Africa, and doing crazy things like climbing 2 mountains in a day! Thank you, brother Susumu.

I am also thankful for God's blood of protection over me throughout my time here. I am thankful that I completed by training safely and without harm. I am also thankful for Dr Alan Peter who runs a hostel for medical students and professionals. He gave me home in a foreign land, and a family and community to lean on. I strongly recommend his accommodation should one ever consider coming to do an elective or fellowship in Johannesburg. Thinking back, the worst experience I had here were the 4 times I was pulled over for traffic related offences, but that is another story for another time...

In 1 Corinthians 10:13, the Bible says: "No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." I always believed that God will never challenge you beyond that which you can bear, and in my time here I intensely felt that He was in control of my training. 

Let me start off by saying that I have never ever worked so hard before in my life prior to my fellowship in Chris Hani Baragwanath Academic Hospital's trauma unit. My residency training was known to be brutal locally, but it was nothing compared to what I experienced in my first 2 months in Bara! In my first week, I was acutely shocked at the amount of violence there was in this place as the patients who presented to us with their injuries were a direct reflection of what is happening out there. I even found myself questioning whether I was in the middle of a war zone on a few occasions. However, once I got used to the injury patterns, it became like factory work. Whenever a patient presented, we had an efficient system to triage, resuscitate and manage their injuries. As I progressed in my fellowship, I was made to take more responsibility, and with it more operative experience. By the time I was in my last week there, I had ticked off all my checkboxes apart from cardiac stab injuries. I had resuscitated and stabilised them during my time here, but I have never operated on one before.

On my last call, I had Susumu as my registrar. It was so serendipitous that I started and ended this fellowship with him! That night, I remembered telling him that all I lacked in surgical experience here was operating on a stabbed heart, but that I was very appreciative for all the other amazing skills I have picked up, from vascular repairs to thoracotomies. We had 2 stabbed hearts that night, and I did my first and second median sternotomies to repair their cardiac injuries. I believe this is not down to chance, but divine appointment.

I am very grateful to all my mentors and colleagues in CHBAH trauma unit, and I will definitely be back to do calls and learn more from all of you! Thank you, South Africa, for being a part of my life's experiences; this is one that I will hold very dear to my heart forever.